Courage.

I used to collect masks. I loved them all. I wore them all.

Every unique disguise was intended to help me blend in...or stand out. I was capable of hiding every emotion that I believed to be annoying. I could serve as the socialite in any room. My smile was painted on and my tears were optional...only visible if I wore a mask of vulnerability. Even my flaws were a cover-up.

I thought I needed masks. I thought my raw identity was too troublesome and too complicated. I felt unlovable and unacceptable.

Life has a funny way of removing those carnal things and habits that we believe we need in order to survive...

More specifically, God has a funny way of reminding me that all I need is Him.

I don't wear masks anymore. Not because I don't want to...but because disguises have the ability to effect the psyche. I started to forget who I was and who I really wanted to be. I started to lie to me. I was in too deep. I played a role 24 hours a day and eventually...I didn't even know who I was looking at when standing in front of the mirror.

I've spent years trying to decide who I am and what I need. I struggle to be authentic and transparent. I am desperate to accept myself so that I can encourage others to accept me too.

It takes so much courage to just be you <3


NNL

Everybody Won't Like You.

You have two choices.

1) Focus on those who don't approve of your lifestyle, your relationship, your career path, or your appearance. Or...

2) Place your emphasis on those who know how to celebrate you just as you are! I've learned how to zoom in on the people in my life who affirm and inspire me.

I am currently surrounded by supporters who are excited about my future and couldn't care less about my past. I never feel like I have to hide my true desires or identity from the people who really know me. I've designed a special community intended to remind me that being quirky, rebellious, spoiled, and outrageously ambitious is fine. I have friends who remind me to slow down and enjoy each day.

I also have friends who motivate me and tell me when I'm failing to live up to my potential. I'm blessed to have such a versatile and colorful life filled with people who are committed to laughing with me during the good times and crying with me when nothing seems to be going right. I challenge you to evaluate your own social Rolodex. Spring cleaning is a must! Make sure that everyone in your life has an awesome and unique purpose. Be selective. You deserve to have a life filled with love and support.

Remember, if people aren't adding something...they're subtracting from your energy and happiness. I love you. Be encouraged.


NNL